The fourth of eight anonymous letters to Rae, a young woman from Planned Parenthood who I met while trying to infiltrate her organization. As you read this, please pray for Rachel, that this would be one of those crazy lengths that God uses to draw a sinner unto Himself.
So we’re at four gifts out of eight – halfway there. I can’t imagine what it must be like to receive letters from a stranger; that’s never really happened to me before. Sorry if it’s weird; I know there are a lot of creeps out there who might use similar means, for whatever it is they want to accomplish. In my case, I do it for my own protection, and for the protection of my family. I almost didn’t write anything to you, out of fear, but I know that if I want to in any way be like the One who saved me, then courage must the order of the day.
The good news is, if it is in fact exceedingly creepy to receive anonymous packages from a stranger, then you are more than free to throw them away; I’ll never know, at least not on this side of eternity. But when the future of your soul is at stake, I think it would be a great disservice to yourself not to at least hear another perspective. As Solomon once said, “Where there is no guidance, a people falls, but in an abundance of counselors there is safety.” (Prov 11:14) “For what does it profit a man to gain the whole world and forfeit his soul?” (Mark 8:36)
If you’re willing to bear with me a little while longer, then we can arrive at the heart of why I have contacted you. You’re a sinner, Rae, just like me – just like all of us. Sin leads to death, and there is only one cure for death, only one source of healing and genuine love. I want to share Him with you.
The most difficult part of meeting Messiah is admitting that He is perfect, and we are not. He has made provision for our imperfection by dying in our place, by hanging on a cross to receive the wrath of God that we justly deserve. But we have to accept His forgiveness, admit that we need His sacrifice before we can meet Him in peace. And that takes humility, and courage.
As a result, today’s gift will undoubtedly be the least pleasant, because it begins to uncover and deal with your sin. I wish there was another way to approach Him Rachel, but darkness can only be expelled by the presence of light, and there is darkness in all of us. Martin Luther King Jr. once observed the following about national sins, and the same holds true for an individual’s sin:
“We who engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive. We bring it out in the open, where it can be seen and dealt with. Like a boil that can never be cured so long as it is covered up but must be opened with all its ugliness to the natural medicines of air and light, injustice must be exposed, with all the tension its exposure creates, to the light of human conscience and the air of national opinion before it can be cured.” (Letter from Birmingham Jail)
“If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” (1 Jn 1:8-9)
I want you to find the same healing for your sin that I have found for mine, but it can only come by admitting to God that we need His healing. I don’t know the intimate details of your story like He does, but I do know enough to send you the contents of this gift. And receiving the truth really is a gift Rae, even though it may not feel like it in the moment. You can surround yourself with people and friends who tell you all of the things that you want to hear, but a true friend will speak truth into your life, even when it hurts.
So I hope you will allow me to tell you the truth, Rachel. You’re being lied to, and you’re being used – by people, certainly, but more importantly by the enemy of your soul. He doesn’t want you to face your sin because he knows that facing it is the key to being freed from it. There is forgiveness for the sin of abortion, and new life in Messiah alone. My prayer for you is that you’ll have the courage to face the truth, whatever your involvement with this sin may be, and the humility to rest your head on the One who gave His life so that you might live.
With utmost sincerity and compassion,
“I [Messiah] am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and will go in and out and find pasture. The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life, and have it abundantly.” (John 10:9-10)